Depressed?
Beyound Blue is an online site dedicated to raising support for those with depression and awareness about depression.
Getting Help
When I was first diagnosed as being mentally ill I was too ashamed to tell my friends or cousins even. It became a humiliating secret within my family. I felt defective, fake, that no one could ever love me if they found out that beneath the smiles and jokes I was actually incredibly anxious and maybe even back then - a little depressed too. I wanted people to like me, especially my friends and cousins and family. I feared rejection so badly. Because, when I feel loss that other people might see as something small, I feel it as a very intense and unbearable grief. I thought I would be unlovable if people thought I was mentally ill and so I would loose all the people I loved. I had a tendency to view people in an overly adoring, unrealistic light (still do, sometimes) whereas I would beat myself down over every imperfection, over every failure and bump in my life. How could these wonderful, funny and kind human beings view such a fake, mentally ill failure in a positive way?! I used to think.
I thought they would never want to speak to me again, that I would be dead to them.
On top of that, considering the stigma of mental illness, I thought I would become unemployable and wouldn’t be able to afford basic living necessities in the future like groceries and a place to live.
Now I know how distorted my thinking was. To my surprise, when I confessed my mental illness, my friends were still my friends and there was even some nice words of support for me. I now have a job that I like more than the one that I had before being diagnosed with a mental illness and I earn more money from it too. I could receive a months worth of support money from the Government to help me get back on my feet and receive a special plan where seeing a Psychologist is a lot cheaper. Being diagnosed with a mental illness is not the end of the world although it may seem like it for a start. If you feel like it’s all too much and you don’t know how to work things out then feel free to send me a message. I will try my best to find you some useful support services to get everything back on track.
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